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~*~iF i cOuLd tUrN bAcK TiMe*~*

Though we shouldnt b lookin back at e past ~
as nothin can change it ~
but i believe if given a chance,
most of us would do smthin tat we didnt do in e past.

if i could turn back time,i would try moi best 2 make moi dad stay by moi side
losing him was e greatest turnin point of moi life.
things was never e same~
everyone in e family seems 2 b more concern abt themselves n money
e bond btw e family wasnt there anymore~

onli 1 person is tryin hard 2 put us 2gether again.
but i was 2 young 2 understand wat he's tryin 2 do,
instead of being grateful~ i found him a nuisance.
when i start 2 appreciated wat he's doin.. its 2 late
moi gong gong was oreadi dw wif cancer.

seeing him suffered,reali torn moi heart into pieces.
e worse thing is at tat time,i was jobless..
no income,little allowance...
everydae i took bus 2 GH frm moi place n evenin walk all e way bk hm~
instant noodles everydae... its was e most difficult period of moi life~
retakin "O" , visitin moi gong gong.. cant managed if i were 2 get a job~

finali got at job which is moi current job.. at tat time..
no life.. everydae was e same routine.. feedin him then 2 wrk
or vice versa... but i dun feel its borin~ in fact tats e best i could do 4 him..
i noe everythin was 2 late.. ji 2 late 2 say sorrie 2 him
cos he started 2 suffer memory lost..
smtime he would even mixed up moi sis n i..

aft he passed away~ there goes everythin...
nothin 4 me 2 b busy wif.. but e gulit is there..
but there nothin i can do ~