*~a cOLd xMaS~*

another yr has passed.. we r gettin older n older.. 2 lotsa ppl.. they tink im stil young.. but duno y i feel myself much older than moi age... leadin a life of an old woman.. everydae jus wrk,hm slp... tis is e 1st yr i spent at hm..jus nw darlin came 2 wrk place n meet me.. pei me do some last min shoppinn had a simple dinner.. then she went hm while i delieve moi gifts 2 a close fren n her mum.. since nothin 2 do tis yr..travellin ard is e onli thing tat came 2 moi mind on hw 2 waste moi time on tis very xmas eve.. all tis yrs had been celebratin n countin dw,clubbing.. tis few daes seen lotsa ppl doin their shoppin n gatherin.. but dun feel e warmth of tis festive season at all.. in fact,feel e coldness.. even though done e gift exchange all tat.. but din feel much.. jus nw on e journey hm.. feelin so cold.. so empty.. seein ppl rushin here n there.. in grps, wif families.. where i choose 2 scroll hm slowly.. since nothin awaitin.. might as well take moi own sweet time.. tml jus gonna b another dae bah.. wrk wrk wrk.. guess tat jus hw moi life gonna b bah.. ppl always say fan si dou you di yi ci.. so i guess aft tis cold xmas.. im expectin a cold new yr ,chinese new yr,etc..should i b lookin forward?