*~mY 2005~*
Tink can slowly sum up e events of tis yr.. but guess i cant rem much.. completed moi studies, but nt sure if theres more comin up.. had a great bdae celebration tat makes me feel like a queenie.. thank you all moi dear frens.. i oso did try 2 quit smkin.. but realise tat ciggy is moi onli best fren (i mean beside moi teddy).. tat stays by moi side when im lonely,stressed at wrk,pissed,confused,sad n when e whole world is 2 busy 4 me.. so in e end.. i stil turn 2 tis best fren of mine..
Hmm.. but tis yr i oso learn lotsa new stuffs.. or should i say make me rem e lessons i had since young? Teachin me 2 b independent.. nt 2 rely on anyone.. tis few yrs.. i totalli 4got abt being independent.. i was way 2 dependent.. theres always a price 2 pay when u dun learn or 4get ur lesson.. i guess im payin e price nw ya.. i see moi old self comin bk.. e selfish,attitude,bo chup,lifeless,soul-less me.. jus keepin myself busy wif wrk,boring games and slp.. i slowly pickin up e old habit of being alone.. shop alone,go foot massage alone,goin movies alone~ tats wat i used 2 do! cos e whole world r 2 busy 4 me? mayb bah~
Recentli i did somethin tat surprise myself 2.. he did kinda came bk into moi life.. as in reappear in person tis yr.. but as wat i written jus nw.. i saw e old me coming bk.. it had been 3 wks since i didnt pick up his call.. he called mani time in tis 3 wks.. guess it exceed e numbers of calls he called me last yr! but i din bother 2 pick it up.. dun feel tat theres a need 2 tok bah..
Theres lotsa time i keep askin myself.. WATS FUCKIN WRONG WIF MOI LIFE! but came 2 tink abt it.. i tink e most sala things is done by moi mum.. y she bought me 2 tis world in e 1st place?! lol.. sad but true rite.. nw i keep tellin meself 2 keep a dist frm every single person.. be it a fren or my family.. cos if i stand up on moi own..at least i noe where i'll b headin.. e last time i stand up cos theres a helpin hand tat pulls me up..and nw im lost.. completely lost! mayb at tat time, im one of e important ppl in her life bah~ well.. but 1 sad thing in life is tat time changes everythin.. ya.. i mean everythin.. when someone new came along.. e close fren will jus b like a old pic.. e color will slowly fade off.. n replaced by e new 1~ haha.. remind me of a korean show "doll master" in e show theres tis doll owner tat 4gotten abt her old doll.. even e name.. mayb tats life bah.. i nv 4got abt moi teddy~
haiz.. mai kong le.. 2005 sux 2 e max.. i dun look 4ward to 2006.. cos i've reach e pt where i dun look 4ward 2 anythin anymore.. everydae will jus b another dae.. moi resolution for 2006 is 2 disappear.. in anyway i guess.. jus wana make lotsa money$$!! money is nt everythin.. i noe tat.. but when u hv nothin.. u sure at least hv money.....
Hmm.. but tis yr i oso learn lotsa new stuffs.. or should i say make me rem e lessons i had since young? Teachin me 2 b independent.. nt 2 rely on anyone.. tis few yrs.. i totalli 4got abt being independent.. i was way 2 dependent.. theres always a price 2 pay when u dun learn or 4get ur lesson.. i guess im payin e price nw ya.. i see moi old self comin bk.. e selfish,attitude,bo chup,lifeless,soul-less me.. jus keepin myself busy wif wrk,boring games and slp.. i slowly pickin up e old habit of being alone.. shop alone,go foot massage alone,goin movies alone~ tats wat i used 2 do! cos e whole world r 2 busy 4 me? mayb bah~
Recentli i did somethin tat surprise myself 2.. he did kinda came bk into moi life.. as in reappear in person tis yr.. but as wat i written jus nw.. i saw e old me coming bk.. it had been 3 wks since i didnt pick up his call.. he called mani time in tis 3 wks.. guess it exceed e numbers of calls he called me last yr! but i din bother 2 pick it up.. dun feel tat theres a need 2 tok bah..
Theres lotsa time i keep askin myself.. WATS FUCKIN WRONG WIF MOI LIFE! but came 2 tink abt it.. i tink e most sala things is done by moi mum.. y she bought me 2 tis world in e 1st place?! lol.. sad but true rite.. nw i keep tellin meself 2 keep a dist frm every single person.. be it a fren or my family.. cos if i stand up on moi own..at least i noe where i'll b headin.. e last time i stand up cos theres a helpin hand tat pulls me up..and nw im lost.. completely lost! mayb at tat time, im one of e important ppl in her life bah~ well.. but 1 sad thing in life is tat time changes everythin.. ya.. i mean everythin.. when someone new came along.. e close fren will jus b like a old pic.. e color will slowly fade off.. n replaced by e new 1~ haha.. remind me of a korean show "doll master" in e show theres tis doll owner tat 4gotten abt her old doll.. even e name.. mayb tats life bah.. i nv 4got abt moi teddy~
haiz.. mai kong le.. 2005 sux 2 e max.. i dun look 4ward to 2006.. cos i've reach e pt where i dun look 4ward 2 anythin anymore.. everydae will jus b another dae.. moi resolution for 2006 is 2 disappear.. in anyway i guess.. jus wana make lotsa money$$!! money is nt everythin.. i noe tat.. but when u hv nothin.. u sure at least hv money.....
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